Roller Coaster Ride
Dear Friends-
Yesterday I met with another doctor for another opinion. First let me say when he walked in he asked, "How many months has it been?" I replied, "It has been 6 weeks!" He couldn't believe!!! He also told me that he had heard of people who had been through less trauma and didn't survive to tell the story.
Hearing this from my friends and family is one thing, but hearing it from a professional is another. It put many things into perspective. I really realized how lucky I am. Unfortunately, my emotions are up and down and all around. I feel like I am on a roller coaster of emotions! One day I'm fine and the next I don't know if I'm coming or going! I know there will be good days along with the bad ones!
I always tried to be a positive person. I'm treading in unfamiliar territory! I'm so scared that I won't look like me again!! I know I am very lucky!! Why, when I look in the mirror, don't I feel so lucky?? I pray to God to give me the strength to know it's going to be OK.
According to this doctor, I should have died that day! Well doc, He wasn't ready for me and I wasn't ready to go!! I truly believe that I was put here to do something and I just haven't done it yet!
For the first time yesterday, I asked WHY??? Why does a small innocent child get cancer and die? Why does a women with 5 children get killed in a car accident?There are no answers! I know these feelings are normal. If I wouldn't be going through "The Stages" I wouldn't be normal.
I am so blessed to have so many great people supporting me!! My family, friends and my community! You guys are amazing. I am humbled and honored to be your hero!
Katie
Hey Katie:
Glad to hear you are doing better, I heard about the accident from Dru I think she worked at Studio 121 for a while. I wanted to get in touch with Amy but I figured everyone was calling to check on you. Yesterday I heard about the wonder walk and your website so today I wanted to check it out. Sounds like you will pull through this just fine. Glad to hear your healing well and fast. I'm sure you have a long road ahead but I know your a strong willed person and you will get through this. I will ask to post a email about the walk at the firm. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers, you'll be just fine. Luv ya Lacy Lasseigne:)
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Katie, Keep up the positive outlook girl. I have been through similar circumstances with "the stages". They suck but you can do it.
I am so glad to see that you are being grateful for what you do have and that you are counting your blessings. Searching for the silver lining will get you through this. After all it is said that in all things we should praise HIM.
As far as the why...I feel I must give you this...maybe your why is actually for someone else. It may be for someone reading your blog, it may be for me, it may be for someone at your walk that this happened to you.
I was once called a 'hero' for what I had been through. It has made me strong. On bad days, you will be able to say: You know what, I am going to choose to have a Great day because, a weight system didn't fall on me today! I know it sounds silly, (people look at me funny when I say mine) but sweetie, it's all about perspective.
May the Lord bless you and keep you and help you to find the strength that He gave you within yourself to get through this and come out smelling like a rose.
Yours truly,
Laura
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Katie,
From the time I heard about the accident until today reading your blogs, you have been in our thoughts and prayers!! I can't begin to imagine how difficult of a time this is for you, but what I do know is that you are strong and will walk away from this a survivor and a hero! You are truly an inspiration to me and anyone else who hears your story. You and your family will continue in my prayers, and know you have many supporters with you through this journey. Keep up your hard work and determination! xo
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Everywhere I go people ask me about you.
Girl,you know everybody! I see your journey unfolding on this blog and it gives me joy to see your attitude of gratitude. I, too, am a hopeless Optimist! Good for you! You will put this behind you in short order. Luv Ya!
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